Under Construction

Unjuanted attention

Less now, but still annoys the SHIT out of me. I wonder what he got in Soc, can’t wait to rub my 4.5 in his face because I’m sure he did worse

Giraffe out.

Island

I feel very lonely
I call my sister a lot cause there’s always something to talk about, but often it’s turns into her whining about money and how she can’t spend much of her paycheck or other problems with my mom.
Don’t talk to my parents much and I haven’t really made any BFFs here.
And because I feel lonely I just sit and watch the office or other shows because I don’t feel like trying to find someone to interact with or there’s like nobody there.
I call lily, but now, we run out of things to say…
I don’t have anyone stable, who I trust with– well everything.
I need a stable presence to talk to.

THE CREEP.

HE KNOWS OF MY CONVERSATIONS WITH OTHER PEOPLE (ROSS)

HE ALSO TALKED TO E ABOUT MY VOTE IN THE FB POLL OF WHAT TO DO THIS FRIDAY NIGHT. “HEY I SAW THAT YOU VOTED TO BEAT UP ROSS. GOOD CHOISE, WE SHOULD TOTALLY DO THAT. IT’S WINNING RIGHT NOW.”

WTFFFFFFFFFFFFF IM JUST TRYING TO BE FRIENDLY AND NOT COLD BUT WTF MAN WTF!!!

Felt really confused and weird on Thursday when I woke up

I knew it was partly because I dreamt that I was in a relationship with the creep [BARF] and that we had sex [triple barf]… but it wasn’t just that. 

It was the fact that having or abstaining from sex is a decision I’m going to make… and maybe somewhere in the near future. In theory I’ve always been adamantly for abstinence but its just disconcerting that I’m 18 and that decision actually hold some weight now. Not really a decision now but idk it just seems so much more eminent now. Especially after talking to Kim. 

I think it’s mostly that I’m scared shitless by sex in general… very mature, I know.

Old but felt like posting

I am such a good stalker ;) LOLJK its research!!^__^

heh so at the ‘reception’ we were walking back from helping an auntie put stuff in the car and I mentioned pantera cause I knew bowtie lived in db at somepoint and played basketball soo yeahh LOL and it turned into a convo ^__^ HEHEHEHEH LOL

BBALL on Wed

Played the whole game! Kinda tiring BUT WE WON! :D
I MISS IT SO MUCH :’) 

Yesterday Gigi randomly started telling me about how she thought Juan was a good player and I was like lol no
And today I was talking to Kim about how she was feeling after her breakup and she was like what about you and I was like nobody here is like attractive or they’re like just people I see in commons and stuff.. And she was like what about Juan!! -____- im convinced gigi put her up to it, and e probably told her anyway i was like ummm no, not my type etc

BUT UGH WHY. He’s soo immature and I unattractive… I feel like semi-validated now cause i saw this coming but still I dont want to be like Amanda bynes in that one episode of what I like about you.